Love is a test

It is a very long time I left this bloggy thing. Yea..busy with the thesis and activities with my lovely husband. And now I am alone again. My sweet husband has went back for good. Have to start his job and new journey in USM. The feeling of being lonely is not good at all. I can feel like half of myself is far away from me. And I keep on putting myself together day by day and sometimes end up with doing nothing.

Actually, it is easier for me if sensei let me have the public defence on December...but I am hanging until February. Gosh! I don't know how can I make it. I will have a big conference in HK on Dec and might be TRB in January. Actually need to work on a lot of things but I don't feel happy because sensei is very very busy. Seems he doesn't care about us ...but I just don't know. I am wondering about a lot of things. We may be just need to swallow every uncertainty that waits for us.

Peoples say that 6 months is not a long time. But, thinking about the life after the 6 months is making me worried. I do want to be with my husband and I don't know how can I handle a life without him every night and day. The other sensei in my lab also stays far away from his family and he said he is really tired.

If one day I have to sacrifice my career because I need to be with my husband, I think I will do it. I do believe that people always have a choice to live a life that exactly good for them. But in my case, I cannot decide yet....I am praying that Allah makes it easy for us. To find a good job is hard, but to find the true love is even harder....

I maybe cheering up myself with some traditional dance performance. Yea...I love traditional dance. Dunno if I still have that skills.. because I think I am getting fat. I need more stamina and ebergy...However,I will take it as an experience and for another line in my CV!

That's all for now...Missing you very much my dear hubby...