Saja entry kali ini tulis dlm BM. Hari ini cuaca tak berapa sejuk. Oleh kerana rasa happy dengan weather yang baik, so tgh hari tadi masak asam pedas ikan terubuk Sarawak. Santai2 sedikit, tetapi bila dapat email sensei terus rasa yabai. Memang banyak kerja, kalau tak pandai control stress ni, mmg tak akan ada mood langsung untuk buat semua kerja...Sigh! Selagi x habis PhD ni, takde la holidays. Lagi2 next april dah start thn D3. PhD ni pun kerja juga, tiap2 bulan gaji masuk...jadi anggaplah SAYA BERKHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA hingga grad.

Di bawah email sensei...rajin betul sensei ni...saya sent malam semalam pukul 12.30 malam, ptg sbtu dia balas. Adoyai...

Hi, Nur san;

It is a good first step for the next analysis.

Beore the regression analysis, you need compare means for all the variables 
(by ANOVAs and t-statistics) between conditions. Make a table for comparing 
means and standard deviation for all the variables with the information of 
ANOVA result. If you find any significance of ANOVAs,you can do t-test 
between any pair of conditions for that variable.

Best.

Satoshi

second baby has a problem

see the red circle ...it suppose to be less than 1. but it's not. grrrr....it makes my day turn upside down.

Tonight my lab has a bounenkai party – the end year party but I skip it. It is better for me to not join because it starts at 9p.m and maybe ends at 11.00p.m. It is too cold and tiring to walk back from station in this kind of weather.alone .Plus, each of us has to pay 4000yen for the party which I think it cost too much. The price is expensive because of the beers. And I am not drinking of course, so if I go I will waste such amount of money (that I can buy for four new shirts )just for paying their beers.

We had a long presentation day today from 1.00p.m to 8.00p.m and after that my lab mates rushing for the bus to go to the party place before 9.00p.m. The senseis also join the party.

It is very different between young professor and old professor. I think I am lucky because get the opportunity to do my PhD under two different professors. Late Prof Kitamura was very famous and respectable person. I was under his supervision until the early of this year and had met him for several times only. Each time I met him, I always felt want to cry and stupid. His question was hard to answer and almost every time I felt like had been scolded. He was 60 years old when he died because of cancer and I am his last PhD student. Yesterday before sleep I cried because suddenly I remembered his words while I was doing the presentation. It was like a sharp knife that made a really deep cut which I will remember those words maybe forever.

Those memory came suddenly because my 婚約者 had faced the hard situation for 彼のlast プレゼンテーションの準備. What we face here is something to be reminded when we become a supervisor for our students one day. Either the student will ‘success’ in his/her research is actually depends on the supervisor’s way of guidance. I don’t know in the places other than Japan but, what I and 婚約者have been experienced here is might be the bitter part of medicine. We hate it but we have to swallow it.

Picture of 2 years ago when I first came to the lab. Late Prof Kitamura asking Petr about his life showing his concern to his student.

True love is not measured in hugs and kisses, but in struggles and fears, and those who can work though those...they possess true love. - Adam Murphy

SD , error . logit and phobit

Yesterday sensei asked to divide my standardized coefficient with PAIxPAI/6 which is 1.644. It made me trumbled up and down because I can't figured out what is the purpose. He said that standrd deviation for the error term for phobit is 1, but logit is 1.644. So I need to divide the value to normalize the value at same level with phobit. Alhamdulillah I have settled the prob after searching in the internet (thanks to Kenneth Tran for his book Discrete Choice Method), but still dunno yet if it is correct or not. still waiting for sensei's reply. Headache smashs me and the weather is very cold like I can't even left my desk. I want to cook something for dinner but it is soooo chilly. The thing that I hate the most for winter season is going to the toilet which is freezing me.

my new bag of obsession. cute isn't it?

Good.

I think you do not have to wait untill
your submittion to Transport Policy
submittion to WCTR.
So, you can submit it to Transport Policy
immediately after we finished
writing.

Best.

Satoshi

I have already paid for WCTRS's revision. How about make it two hits!
I am too ambitious sometimes, in fact I work really slow - as slow as snail ...
This email gives me an impact to write and write and write
But I think I need to go for window shopping for a while.
The temptation to spend money on clothes, shoes or accessories is really killing me.

nobody wants to be left behind

Waiting for sensei replying the email was something that made my heart thumping. Also, when I opened the email and saw there was sensei’s name, I tried not to read it directly but just read it through. After I felt better and all prepared for any circumstances, I read it once again. Suddenly, I am relieved! No big correction this time. But still, I have to do some revisions and he added some sentences and ideas. But still I don’t know if the paper I am making now is suitable for the Transport Policy Journal. Anyway I had tried. Effort does count! I am about to challenge myself for not delaying the small tasks because when tomorrow comes, I can freshly figure out on how to write the second baby in the proper way. Plus, there is an idea on another paper for ITS conference in Busan, Korea for next year. Owh! Hope that I can manage it too.

Hope my dear, hope.

Autumn in the blur

I am on my way to write my second baby. I had already satisfied with my first even though I still do not receive any comment from sensei yet. The problem with the second paper is I can’t easily compare the psychological factors between two conditions. There are some factors restricting the comparison logically. So I have to figure out, what am I suppose to report. Plus, I have to write another paper on ITS and need to prepare my second data collection, that is tougher than before.

I really hope I can stop the time for a while.